A moment like this...

Hey guys! Welcome back to another day in the world of Amblissity. I haven't been able to think of anything recently on blogging. I had writer's block. Well today I decided to come down to see one of my best friends. Being down here makes me realize how much I miss her, but not how much I miss the area I'm from. If I could put a curse in this area... I would. This area is so judgemental and want to know everything that's going on. When I'm standing here I feel like I'm being watched by millions of eyes. But when I'm down home, where I feel like I belong, nobody cares. Everyone's so busy with their day lives that they are just chill. I love the area I currently live in. I hate the area where I'm from. I'm down here though for her and two other true friends. Otherwise I wouldn't be here. I feel like she's always been my long lost sister. She's never judged me for either one of who I was meant to be or this fake ass person. She's always been true to me, so I'm showing her the same thing back. 

   I have to say this is the first blog I wrote without me talking about my fiance. I definitely miss him though. We've been giving each other space because we are already around each other 24/7. So I'm getting used to this. I miss him so much. So I'm still thinking about you boo😍😘

  So I was listening to a song I heard on her mom's TV. It was "Strawberry Wine, by Deanna Carter." I almost cried. I did end up crying eventually because I'm so happy with my life and how it's finally content. 

  My life has been crazy and I want people to stay in my life, but it's hard when they don't want to or you're just meant to be on seperate paths. It's sad seeing the ones you love the most being ripped out of your heart and home. It's your choice to go back. It's definitely your choice if you want to keep contact or not. You don't have to push someone away just because it didn't work out. Trust is something you earn and gain. It's not just going to be handed to you on a silver platter. Like hear ya go. Here's your trust. It's not that easy. Nothing is that easy. Everything I have earned up until this point was not only earned but it was rewarded. It was rewarded to me by trust and hard work. I worked hard for my money which gained me everything I got to this point. 

  I now have everything I want and need in my life. I'm like to live in the moment. A friend told me that last Monday when we got to hang out. She said, "I like hanging out with you because you live in the moment. You don't stay in your phone or a TV. That's why I like hanging out with you." That made me want to cry too. I turned into a sensitive person over the past couple months. I hate it. It's the worst. But I have to learn to live with it. 

  I like hanging out with my best friend though. It wasn't till last night/ today that I realized how much her and her boyfriend are perfect together. She wants him to do everything with her. That's what I do with my fiance. It's wonderful. At first I didnt like this guy, but then after being down here with her and him. Seeing their interactions, and how they talked to each other was awesome. As my fiance and I go along we are meeting more couples like us. I just need him to realize that so we can all hang out together and we can move forward with things. 

  I missed my best friend but I honestly can't wait to go home. I miss my view and most of all, I miss my fiance. I also miss my job 😂. No seriously I do. I am a little upset I'm not working tomorrow, but kinda glad I have a 3 day weekend. Also glad that I'm kinda not working because Sundays are the busiest especially on fountain. Omfg. 

  The care ride down though was interesting it took me almost 4 hours and I listened to music the entire time. The drive back Sunday is going to be the same way. 

   Well that's all I can think about right now. I'm just glad I finally got to write something because otherwise, I would have been driven nuts. I'm glad something finally came to me. My life is finally content. Which makes me super happy. 

Also a little p.s. I've been inspired by an artist recently who has been posting amazing stuff. I'd tell you to check them out, but I'm not really in contact with majority of people I was when I lived down here. Most of all I didn't graduate with this kid, but they've been around with some super cool drawings. You may know who I'm talking about. They are pretty known for what they do. But skipping that out. This is finally the end of my blog. So go check out, "Strawberry Wine by Deanna Carter." Until next time; Here's to hoping! 🤞

-DJ_Amblissity