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Hey Gang! Welcome back to another day in the blog world of Amblissity. I've been really feeling down and out lately. I'm home all the time now. Each day my life becomes more boring. Have you ever felt trapped before and it feels like you can't move forward because if you do everything or everyone is gonna make you feel bad about it? Well that's how I feel right now. I thought choosing to stay after 6 years just because he got a job would be worth it. Truth is I'm not happy. When we do spend time together it's for maybe a few hours. Then it's hit and diss. For most of you, you should know what that I mean. As for me it's making me feel even lonelier. Me choosing him, I thought I could fix things. But no matter how much I talk it out, nothing ever changes. It only gets worse. But if I even decide to remove myself from the situation so many will hate me and try to ruin who I am. Unlike majority of people I care, because I built on for 6 years. No one seems to see that though. They are just looking at me being the bad guy. He's not my responsibility, but I feel like he is. As of the moment I don't have many friends. Each day it gets smaller. At the moment, I only have maybe... 3 best friends, and an acquaintance. I have no hobbies. I have no job. I have no life. Just him like it's been for 6 years. Only thing is I still feel alone. I feel like I'm just a side piece. I don't want to feel like this anymore, but of course nobody understands or cares. I only know of one person who knows exactly how I feel, and it's not him. He's always telling me to stop pushing his friends and family away, but what about me? I've pushed everyone away for him, but it's like he doesn't care. It's just about him, but once again I'm the bad guy, because no one's listening to me. No one's helping me. I had people to help, but I chose him and nothing changed. I just want to start a new life. I want to start a new beginning, but I can't do that when nobody wants him. I want to break from my past, but I can't do it. I can't let go, because I have nothing to look forward to besides destruction. If you were in my shoes. What would you do? Give me some of your answers. Cause I can't seem to find any. I don't want to stay stuck in a house 24/7. I want to work and travel the world. My end goal is to become famous, but I can't do that when I see nothing in my future. I just wish someone would hear me. There's no moral, emotional, or any support here. No reading of my blogs, no watching of my YouTube, not even watching my Tiktoks. Apparently they're boring 😒. I no longer want to keep going. I'm tired and I'm ready to give up. I find myself sleeping more than anything else in my life right now. I can't keep pushing myself to pretend to be happy, because I'm not. I'm tempted to write what happened a few months ago, but of course... I can't. Well I'm sorry that this blog is so depressing guys, but this is all my life is right now. To my "best friend" who I made the last blog for who is now happy. I'm sorry I let you down. I feel like a big disappointment. Enjoy your trip to Tennessee. Wish I had the money to go, but well you know my situation. Once again Happy Belated birthday! I feel like I need to mention this song again because this is where I wish my life would have taken me, if I could get myself out of my past. So the song is "In the name of Love by Martin Garrix & Bebe Rexha". Also, if you happen to be reading this. Which you might not be. But I hope you enjoyed your brother's wedding, looks like it was alot of fun. The song I choose for today's blog is, "How Far I'll Go from Moana". Cause I don't know how much longer I can go. So as always be sure to check out the above songs. That's all I have for now. Until next time, Here's to hoping 🤞😎🤑 Signing off for now, DJ Amblissity 🤑😎🤞 PS. I've posted all over YouTube on most watched videos to most recent videos. What view I made it on. So if you find me Congratulations! There has been 2 people who have already discovered me. Will you be the next? (EX: 1,482,986 Views 🤑 😎🤞 on No Life Shaq & songs)